Testify: Does God Deliver From Depression?
It’s still fresh in my mind, there I was sitting on the examining table crying hard. I mean really hard and my doctor was charting a diagnosis of depression.
“You’re depressed” he said. I was gaining weight, having unexplained aches and pains, severe digestive issues, not sleeping, crying easily, having problems thinking, blacking out, and a host of other things. I was depressed. And I was a follower of Christ.
My doctor wrote me a prescription, MD’s are known to medicate patients right? Often that medication helps with the symptoms but doesn’t touch the core of the problem. Along with that prescription they send you to therapy to try to work through the core concerns while managing the symptoms.
I didn’t want any medication for depression.
What I wanted was not to be depressed.
I’d grown up around that…they were commonly referred to as “nerve pills” and as a child my mind was made up that I didn’t want any “nerve pills”.
I remember showing my sister who is a nurse the prescription and hearing her tell me that the prescribed mediation could be addictive. That was enough for me to decide that I didn’t want it and that I would be making a demand on the anointed one and his anointing. I was broken and I was desperate.
When I talk about depression people assume I’m trying to put people down who choose alternate ways of dealing with their depression. We’re all different. We all have different strengths, tolerances for pain and discomfort, emotional and mental capacities and abilities to handle things in life as well as support systems. I was alone and all I had was the Lord. My church wasn’t supportive, I was a single parent working full time and trying to attend college. Did I mention I was a follower of Christ?
I prayed and asked God to do something for me and he did it. That’s praiseworthy. So I don’t hesitate to praise him for it!
I’ve had people become uncomfortable when I say the Lord can deliver from depression because they assume I’m being critical when in truth I’m saying he can deliver from it because he delivered me.
I have found some people find it upsetting because they think I’m implying they lack faith.
When I look back things were dark, literally. Sometimes my eyes would be wide open and I could see nothing. Darkness. I was driving to work some days to a job I had for years and while driving I would forget how to get to work, I would be lost and have to pull over until I could recall what I was doing and where I was going.
Things that were or should have been rote I couldn’t do.
I’d be in my apartment and have episodes where my brain was telling my body to do something and nothing was happening. Things would go black. I had episodes where I’d be driving and want to stop my car in the middle of the street, get out and get in traffic.
Some people call these panic or anxiety attacks. I don’t know what they’re called but I do know that I didn’t want them. I know I wasn’t going to accept them as my normal.
Someone else may have to take a different route in their process but this is MY story and MY testimony. When I say he can it’s because he did!
Whether he changed my situation or not is one thing but I desperately needed him to change how I perceived my situation. I needed him to restore my overall strength, fix my mind and the negative effects my mind was having on my body. I needed him to do what he does. So I asked and I received. But I had a part to do also. I dug into the word, prayer and consecration harder than ever! Adversity has a tendency of pushing us even further down on our knees.
Followers of Christ must understand that we’re all different. While he may be delivering someone out of depression there’s another believer that he never allowed to enter into it and still another one that was in it but came out without medication and therapy. We should be able to rejoice for it all. He can deliver however he likes and he’s not short on ways to make it happen.
It doesn’t matter how much of a follower of Christ you are he never said you wouldn’t have to endure some things in this life.
For me depression was one of those things. It wasn't new to me because I had grown up with it and had intimate and eye opening talks with someone who was on medication and receiving therapy.
By his grace and mercy he brought me out of it. I lost a lot in the process that is for another blog post but for those dealing with depression hold on to him. Don’t let Go! I share that he can bring you out because he brought me out.